matthewnguyen

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The notion of suicide never really appealed to me before. I saw it as a waste of time and too tedious to perform. I came back from having a test and i'm 90% sure i failed, barely finishing most of my questions and getting weird answers. My dad was like prepare yourself better in the future tests. Dont think il be doing any over at terry lee anymore. Who the fuck would put in a new topic in a test which would clash in with the exam period of most people? Fuck it. Suicide was never appealing before, but now it is slightly appealing. Doubt i'll ever do it but these thoughts wont be great for my health. No exams, no pressure, no expectations from parents, it's almost like a utopia, except you miss out on so much. I'm sick of life as of now. With religion coming up, i dont think i can handle anymore stress. It's so depressing. My parents will find out about my expulsion and rage at me. Gotta find a new maths tutor and be shunned upon. Tighter working schedules. Just fuck this life. Fuck.