matthewnguyen

Rant of life

I feel like ranting about my life right now LOL So here goes.
I actually never thought about being a musician in the first place. It never occurred to me at a young age. I always liked games like freddy fish and luther, pajama sam and put-put on the computer which were childish problem solving games. I recall joining the choir in year 3 with my friends. Then never going to a meeting again after we had to sing in front of the whole school. I just didn't find it masculine, no, i found it too feminine at that point in life. I also remember myself trying to draw anime characters LOL Afrer being corrupted by naruto, i tried to draw anime girls with big eyes and long hair. I failed so hard at that LOL

I've always wanted to be creative. Cant remember why, but i wanted to be portrayed as a person who was creative. Not exactly creative, but was good at creative activities. I was jealous of my friends back then at their creative skills and still, i am jealous of a few now. Still cherishing the picture lynnie drew me of the sonic blade girl in angel beats and remembering the badass drawings kwo used to draw in year 8. Far out. Was so jealous of him at the time. He drew sasuke and a full body sketch of kakashi WITH THE SHARINGAN.

So going to my auntie's place where they had a piano, i took interest into music. No talent whatsoever though. I never used a keyboard to practise, i practised on the piano. My teacher was the one who inspired me. My homosexual teacher which i didnt find out until he left. He complimented me and used the right words so when i got home, i would practise my ass off just to impress him. I had my first AMEB grade 2 exam and he accompanied me. The exam only took less then 15 minutes haha. I got an A and he said he was proud of me. However, there came the time where he said he would leave the piano tuition place. I cried in front of him. He gave me a book of classical piano pieces and wrote his own little speech there. I still read it now and then.

Then i got a new teacher who i didnt really practise for, colin who ho is being tutored by now. Then i got a few subs ranging from a strong accented russian guy, a young pretty asian girl and a middle aged viet woman who was extremely epic. Then i quit. Just didnt like all the pressure anymore and my dad was pressuring me too. If you continue with the lessons, do the grade 6 exam. So look where i am now, a shell of my former self. Ive been attempting to play a few songs but have barely gotten anywhere. They are just too hard with all the consecutive arpeggios. Ugh. Going to go back to playing songs like hokage's funeral again.