matthewnguyen

Human Nature

I am faceless. These masks I have to put on everyday, to hide behind everyday, to LIVE off everyday; it's not ideal at all. To smile and not mean it, to laugh emptily and to force myself to endure the hardships of everyday life; no one wants that. All my thoughts and feelings, are they even genuine anymore? Do I have the capacity to think on my own? Or are all these generated by my masks, my personas I live off.

I am yet to have a day devoid of the people I despise. They are everywhere and there is no escape from them, nothing at all. Their personalities are twisted and their motives are convuluted, is there no end to these people? Why must I have these people in my existence? Everytime they speak; lies roll off their tongue so easily, whenever they act; it either reflects their true selves or an attempt to conceal it, and whenever i interact with them; their existence feeds the sea of hatred I harbour for those humans. Pathetic. Can they even be called humans? Definitely, but despicable ones in my perspective.

They hold little to no respect for others. I despise those who do not know their place, to act out of selfishness and to continuously attempt to glorify themselves. It makes me laugh at how stupid some humans are. To point out the flaws in others to make yourself feel like you have worth is common in this world. It would be awfully hypocritical of me to not admit I do that, I tend to minimise it and not make it so obvious. I do it in such a way so the other person doesn't realise it and that my contentment is concealed behind my mask. Others however, you people deserve judgement. To blatantly point out flaws, to horribly fail in concealing your own twisted happiness, I truly wish you will fail in life. To never find happiness and always have false hope. Whenever I see or interact with a person like that, I have the face of sympathy, but deep down, I am disgusted that I enjoy their suffering.

Sometimes, my real personality leaks out and others can truly see for who I am. They can notice my moods and sometimes even thoughts. But the people who I despise the most are those who don't accept their consequences. For one to achieve in life, you must put in effort, whether all of even some of it will do in my opinion. For those who put in little to none AND cry about it really make me feel fucking psychopathic. I want to eliminate those individuals. They deserve yet, knowing that yet still wasting their tears. Accept your failures in life, don't dwell on them, aspire to do better and move on. The world revolves around this notion. "Nothing is true, everything is permitted"