matthewnguyen

Getting back into the gist

With my desire for games fading which is also apparent amongst my friends, I'm getting back into anime. Kinda feel happy that when Ho gets famous with his piano covers, I can proclaim that I once knew him. Zetsuen No Tempest 2nd opening on piano <3 Probably consider learning Ho's cover after all :P

I still have this feeling of emptiness when I think of the gap that has appeared between all of us. These relationships that I had in primary were shattered once I hit highschool. I remember faces and events, but nothing else after that. I refuse to let this happen to my highschool relationships. I've felt that the bonds I've forged here have been truly life-changing.

There is no doubt that without each of you guys, i would be a completely different person. And not a better person, I think I am the best I can be at this stage. I like how I think and though my personality has quite a few flaws, I really treasure those flaws which make me who I am. From primary to highschool and highschool to uni life, it's like starting a new life. I don't want that. I want to hang onto my previous life. Never before have I had such strong feelings like this. I really don't want to let any of it go. At all. I'm scared. Some of us will keep in contact with those attending the same uni, and some will not. I just hope we get to meet up and just reminisce and discuss about our new lives and just enjoy each other's company.

Don't drift away like smoke. Condense and stay frozen. I don't want to move too much into the future, I like the present. I yearn the past. But I know that I need to move forward. Since when did life get so complicated? I reject it all. I refuse to let my highschool memories to fade. It's too depressing. Am i just too dependent? Can I not stand on my own two feet. Can i not do anything by myself? Did I always need this much support. I don't know anymore. I don't know at all. Can someone help me. Can someone explain why I feel like this. Just going to think about it all over again before I sleep.