matthewnguyen

It's been a while

Haven't blogged seriously in a while.

Ever since the mid-year break started, I haven't been doing anything productive. I've been on this MMORPG with friends, been mainly playing Dota 2 with friends, occasionally going to places with friends and watching anime by myself. I've pretty much been screwing my eyes over. Worth it though. Quite frankly, I can't picture myself in a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship anymore. That notion has just dispersed. Maybe because I can't find anyone anymore, or the fact that I don't want to anymore. Maybe the lonely life is the peaceful life to go.

Once school holidays finish I'll be taking on violin lessons to be productive for once. Will probably have to learn how to drive more so I can get my Ps as well. Then prep up for SMASH somehow. I've been dying inside ever since uni started and so doing something as weird as crossdressing will allow me to have a hopefully fond memory to revisit later on. I've only just realised that with half the year spent at uni, I haven't made a single friend, just a very few number of acquaintences; around 4 who i see once a week. I'm still stuck at macquarie and i dont think i'll be able to move out of here. The library is my sanctuary.

Going to probably start playing my PS3 again. Going to go back to my Rune Factory where Violet is. Back to the 2D world of sunshine and rainbows.